Friday, April 29, 2011

lOvE

Im loving these things right now. Whether or not theyre in style right now I dont really care. I like them I just dont think I could pull them off.......Comments......tips?
Ya this is pretty much in style right now, but I dont know if my other clothes I wear would match with this style if you know what i mean 

dont know if suspenders are in style but ive always liked the idea of women wearing them.....I think im a little too top heavy to wear them?

Pretty sure I could wear this, this summer. Its just a matter of finding the right one, and the right things to wear with it. I seriously need a new wardrobe! 
Great thing about this is IM GETTING THEM! once I get paid the 5th and go get my hair did.....again. And im not gonna be so crazy with all the feathers probably like 1.......slightly possibly maybe 2? who knows but IM STOKED!

Wills & Kate

Heya!
So the Royals are now wed. Yes the thought has crossed my mind to pull an all nighter so I might be able to watch it on TV. But realized how completely ridiculous that!!!! Yes the Royal Wedding is a huge deal.....but im not british! Wish I was but Im so not anywhere close to being european. Im about as American as they come!
Anyway I heard Daniel Radclif or however you spell his name make a comment that over here in the state we're making a bigger deal of the whole thing. Which I believe is true to an extent. Except have you seen how many people over there line the streets to just see them driving the car or carriage? Its crazy. Well i think he was half correct and half jealous that he didnt get invited to the wedding. Poor Daniel Radclift.....maybe if you didnt do nude plays people would think more highly of you? .....Just Saying!

Anyway here are some pictures....I think her dress is to die for! oh and Caye if youre reading this, Ive always thought that Kate Middleton reminds me of you :) And her wedding dress does as well. The lace is absolutely gorgeous Im not a huge fan of the waist line...at least not for myself but she pulls it off amazingly. Im so impressed at how well she handled the crowds. I dont think ill be that calm even on my wedding day when maybe 30 people will be watching. I guess thats what you get from being famous. (if i could choose to be famous from 1just being famous 2 acting/celebrity or 3 being royal/marrying royal im pretty sure I would choose number 3) Oh and I love her neck like how it V's to a sweetheart top. So so classy, elegant, royal, yet chic, modern, and wonderful!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

It Needs To Be Ok

Hey folks! (disclaimer; im mad frustrated and crying so if you dont read this one its all good)
So Ive been having a huge major break down......mostly around the weather man. Im not going to get into the story because he already got mad at me for sharing a tiny bit of the story with SoontobeMrs.Pace.

More or less he wanted to know how I knew the gospel was true. My response "I just feel it"! Which I felt like he was saying my feeling weren't legit. He wanted me to explain more, explain explain explain! I with fail every time "I feel its true". Not a response hes looking for. Finally I some how figured it out, what he was looking for. Like what I do that makes me feel this way i.e. reading the scriptures, praying, etc.

I went in to my room afterwards and cried my eyes out, like pulling my hair, dry heavy, drooling type crying because I felt like such an idiot! I have a comprehension problem, or an auditory processing disorder. This prohibits my brain from being able to work at a "normal" (whatever normal is) pace. Or I cannot articulate my thoughts very quickly if at all. As I have gotten older it has gotten a lot easier, but has also become more apparent. I feel like Im a lot better at it now compared to Jr. High. I use to not even be able to articulate my thoughts into words, and I know im a little better at that. Mostly Ive found a writting style that works for me. Anyway, I just went about crazy!!!!! I wanted him to understand so badly where I was coming from, but he didnt, so i beat myself up about that. Then I figure it out and beat myself up for having a retarted brain that doesnt effing work how or when I NEED it to. I feel like my whole world is crashing down yet again. Tonight is one of those nights that I would drive home in the middle of the night and surprise my parents in the morning.......but I dont have enough money for gas :(......Ive gotta wait till freaking June to see my family. I honestly dont know if I can hold out that long. Please hold on Berlin. It really is going to be ok!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The Royal Wedding

So I realize that my last post talked about wedding season and such, but how fun would that be to be getting married on April 29th like Kate and Prince William.....Prince William...ya? But I have to admit that im loving the hype from it all! LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!!!

Love it! anyway maybe ill have more to say about this later :D 

Monday, April 25, 2011

Tis The Season

Ok so first im going to side track really quick I was watching Fantasy Factory today and John Mayer was on who knows if the episode I was watching was a new or old one but it was on nonetheless. So my point.......WHAT IS UP WITH JOHN MAYER SLEEVE TATTOO? 


Ya weird right? 

Well what I'm actually blogging about today, "Tis The Season" for weddings! You all know how much I just absolutely love and adore weddings, but when everyone around me is getting married, when your cousin you grew up with in CA for 11 years is engaged, when your 18 still in high school cousin is engaged, when your best friend from high school is engaged, a friend I was in my sing and dance group with is engaged, A close friends younger sister is engaged, when another best friend just had her first baby, when I shouldve been married and already have a child, Tis The Season I just have to walk quickly past and swallow hard....daily! (and its only just starting I've yet to attend a wedding yet, who know how ill get through those) 
However things dont always work out how we planned do they? 
Its just a tough time for me, I want to be happy for people, and I am happy for people, I am! I just find myself having to constantly reminding myself that I am happy for them. I just feel like im looking for prince charming (except a grungyer, stylist, non cookie cutter type........more like Flynn Rider esc!) who doesnt exist. I know everyone says this I know I know I know, and yes I always think im the exception ;) Although im not completely skeptical, I do believe and almost know that he exists. Im just so freaking sick of waiting around. Please dont hate me for being a hater (hahahaha!) but im 21 almost 22 and yes in this almost ridiculous mormon community that I live in......Im getting old. Blewf! Its honestly starting to get to me. Today not so much, but other days A LOT! Anyway I have a major love/hate relationship with this time of year. I love planning and looking at wedding things but when it comes down to my life in that aspect it kinda blow. In due time, In due time! 

Too fun and way too cute!!!!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Hair Color 2

ok....sweet im getting some really great feed back and am loving it! I found some more pictures that I really like and am posting them so let me know which of these you like the best.
Some of my commentary to your comments, blerg! yes i love changing my hair and i do it way too often, but whatever im a hair stylist and cant control myself. I dont want to put hardly any red in because I just had red hair about a year ago. Maybe red lowlights or tiny hints here and there but not red. Yes im very very aware that I looke best with blonde hair. Lets forget that I look best with blonde and go from there yer?
Also some other quick thoughts on brown vs. blonde browns tend to look older a bit more mature blondes are ditzy and stupid brunettes are sultry blondes are cute (could be skanky) Another odd thing I noticed which you may think im crazy but im sticking to this. Whenever I have blonde hair i feel like guys notice me more (which also means girl glare more often) then when I have brown hair. And since im single again I want guys noticing me, i know im a cute attractive girl and no matter what hair color i have ill look good, but should i worry about guys noticing me? (especially with Elder Oaks talk this afternoon and everything sheesh!) On top of all this ive never been someone to "follow the seasons" per se but if i go dark thats completely opposite of what season is coming up. Also since my hair is pretty bleach fryed my hair waves amazingly which = amazing beach wavy hair that could possibly go away if I do brown because it will fill in some of the disulfide bonds (if you even know what im trying to explain). Also I know Z likes darker hair, so did bird face and I feel like the guys I go after tend to like darker hair? Plus its always shallows jerks that seem to go after blondes! kk i need to go to bed, here are the pictures :D
I like this one because I feel like the hair cut is almost identical to the one i have know so its easy to picture my hair brown with this picture (oh cute baby bump!)

Love this too, not as dark as the one above but I think its so chic and stunning.....I really dont want to have matte brown hair at all! 

Here hair is pretty much to die for! 

love love how ashy beige this looks, yes im sure how the picture is photoshopped adds to it, but i really like it! ive had this picture for years! 
So what do you think again....sorry for being such a girl HA! but this is a process I want opinions on, just please dont get offended if i end up choosing what I want like chopping it all off and going black ;) this is something i will share the whole process with you! Maybe ill even document it with yall when I finally get my hair did! Loves

p.s. thanks morgan for both brown hair pictures theyre making it into my hair file on the comp...and on my blog, i really appreciated it!

Friday, April 1, 2011

Hair Color?

Hey friends.....so I went to the color festival this past saturday, and a week later i still have pink in my hair! Its bad! Now that I have a semi professional job i shouldnt have pink hair, but i went to 3 business meetings this week with pink hair i felt extremely unprofessional blerg! But oh well, but my boss has mentioned TWICE that I should dye it.......but if I bleach over it itll kill it. I've known that the next thing I want to do is go dark brown like I had in high school. What a better time then now right? except at the same time I know have long hair and have never had practically platinum long blonde hair. But now that I've been entertaining the though of dark hair I think I really want to do it. But it took me almost a year to get this blonde, and my poor cousin who always colors my hair always always has this massive project when it comes to my hair. I tend to do drastic changed to my hair when things in my life are changes....for instance weather boy is moving back to Idaho in the next few weeks, and unfortunately I care about him more than I ever expected which is so freaking stupid. Another reason to change my hair color all guys i "date" almost always tend to like brunettes better, so I could just fool them right? ;) and also I think im a little more of a brunette personality then a blonde? Or rather i'd like to think im more of a brunetter personality rather than a bimboy blonde? I dont know.....what are your opinions (damn i wish more ppl read this so i could get more opinions) Ill upload pictures of what blonde I like and which brown I like/am thinking about!
Loves!

Ok I mostly uploaded this because I loved her hair at the oscars it was absolutely perfect. This was by far the best hair style/color I've ever seen on her!

Ok ok i know im a tad bit crazy for liking this blonde, but theres no gold :D 

Also not many gold tones in her hair, I love ashy beige blonde and I feel like mine still has a little too many golden tones to it 

This I like because the top is darker, I use to hate this technique.....Sarah Jessica Parker & Jennifer Anniston both tend to do this to their hair often, its actually a style that has most definitely grown on me.I think this might be perfect for my hair so its not too too dark and brings out the right features & highlights, etc. 

And I just adore her hair dark, of course she has absolutely gorgeous blonde hair too though. Hmph!!!! what to do, what to do! Please keep in mind that I am very fair skinned to going dark is and has always been very tricky. The inbetween browns tend to wash me out, which is why I have picked such dark shades. Ive been dark brown before so please dont be scared for me, im pretty positive I know what Im doing. And for some reason I feel like brown might not be as much of an up keep because I might not have to have it foiled everytime I get my hair done. Only like every other time or go 2 times without once with etc. COMMENTS COMMENTS COMMENTS ARE ENCOURAGED!